i was supposed go to a bonfire tonight on 9 mile road, but i don't know if i can be bothered.
work went so slowly today. i thought i'd been there for three hours, however i looked at the dreaded clock and it turns out i'd only been there half an hour. the social was awesome. i was so tired of guys asking if they could be my date, i just threw in the towel and told them i was a lesbian. that shut them up. i spent the night with my favourite girls; that's the way a social should be spent. we were bold and my girlfriend and i danced on stage. the dj played a request (justin bieber) and we were applauded. loving the dance music at the moment. i heard a song i hadn't heard in ages today. last kiss - pearl jam. i cried. not a lot of songs have that effect on me. it's about a guy who took his girlfriend out in his daddy's car. they hadn't driven very far before the car in front of them stalled and stopped. the couple swerved and crashed. the boyfriend lived and listened to his girlfriend's screams just before she died. sounds like something eminem would sing about. anyway, that's it for me. i might go and watch miss congeniality. or a cute movie called 'keeping the faith.'
tata X

i was just thinking, i havnt posted anything in aggeess.
and now i have :)

decisions.

depending on which bus i catch,
to catch the early one, i see lovely Bec from Ballarat Grammar.
to catch the later one, i see my radical friend Morley.
i believe a balance is good.
i'm doing a biology assignment at the moment and i'm feeling very smart.
finally got a job and i'm tired. then i got a second one and now i'm exhausted. i'm about to go for a third. why am i doing this to myself?
very independent at the moment. parents aren't worried. it's a good feeling. after school classes and public speaking lessons. guitar lessons. singing lessons.
i really don't know how i fit it all in.
thank god for my precious time with good friends every morning on the bus :)

sandra.

i love Sandra Bullock.
i admire her.
and i'm so sorry that she ended up with someone like Jesse James who doiesn't know how to treat a beautiful, sophisticated lady.

PSYCH!!!

I gave an awesome performance today.
Who knew Ronan Keating’s ‘when you say nothing’ could be so jazzed up and beautiful?
Well, I knew and my guitar partner knew, and we totally blew our audience away.
A few slides, an electric, an amp, effects pedal, hammer on’s and it’s totally new.
To finally overcome nerves felt so exhilarating.
And the praise afterwards, man I was so psyched!!!
Yay!!! For such an awesome day!!!

cus David asked me to...

i don't believe you ever left,
because you never said goodbye,
and now you've left me here fighting,
through this force we call life.

even though you're gone,
i see you all the time,
i wander through your dreams,
and you stroll through mine.

you've upturned my dimensions,
you've conquered every boundary,
you've woven through the layers,
through my dreams to find me.

cause even though you're gone,
you ignore the sands of time,
i wander through your dreams,
and then you glide through mine.

whenever i was scared,
you were simply there,
whenever i've smiled,
i've felt like a child,
cause the way you make me feel,
sends me down head over heels,
when i miss you, i know what to do,
i close my eyes, and i dream of you,

cause even though you're gone,
you live within my mind,
i wander through your dreams,
and you wander through mine.

i feel...

free. it's such a radical feeling, to feel free.
to be able to walk among those without any care about how you should look, or how thin you should be.
to be able to leave the house with your parents knowing that you're not gonna disappoint them.
something i've learnt, is that
'trust is a must'
i've discovered that truth is the key
to feeling free.

conversations.

The other day my sister was saying how lucky she is that she’s not lying in a hospital bed just wasting away.
And she asked me:
Who was I going to become? What music will I play on the radio? Where will I work? Who will I share my life with? What will I be proud of? What will I do?
So I told her:
I’m always going to be me.
But as great as I can possibly be.
I told her I’d hear my own voice on the radio.
Singing the tunes that I wrote some time ago.
I’d work where I can do what I enjoy.
That I’d be the lucky one to employ.
I’ll share my life with those that make me smile.
Cause life’s all about keeping it worthwhile.
I’ll be proud of everything that’s mine.
I’ll be proud of those that keep me in line.
And lastly I told her I’d do everything I can, cause hey…
We’re all dying anyway.

I read a quote the other day, it said
“Life is an opinion.”
At first I couldn’t make sense of it. Secondly I couldn’t make sense of it. Thirdly, fourthly etc.
I couldn’t come to my own interpretation, so I decided that only the person who said it must know what it means. Either that, or they could be as insane as Mozart.
I personally like Mozart.
But that’s just my opinion.

school.
what a lovely word that is.
no not really, i'm not that mental.
reading upon other's blogs wondering when they got so cool.
missing them immensely.
was let down.
by someone who loved me.
but i don't fall hard anymore, i fall with style.
i've just stood up and made an impression.
dayum, i killed them all :)
why blend in when you can stand out?

outside games

a game of frisbee,
the other kids asked me to play,
but i refused,
because my frisbees don't go the right way.
first they lead straight,
then they splay in all directions,
they quickly change course,
like some sort of a spectrum.
the other kids are brilliant,
they have superb expertise,
they offer to show me how,
and i say yes please.
the others moan and groan,
when they leap for my throws,
i feel sorry for them,
but still away they go.
after i've had a fair few shots,
i decide this isn't my game,
the others encourage me to keep trying,
but they appreciate me sitting out all the same.
honestly i'd just rather watch,
the other kids frisbees glide like ink,
frisbees are beautiful,
don't you think?